Posts tagged with dreams

One day, some weeks ago, I went to the main office of an airline company in order to facilitate some business deal as part of my minor foray into the travel industry. Walking through hangars, and driving along runways and airplanes made me remember how I really wanted to become a pilot when I was much younger, a dream that I think is common among many young boys. Partly, it was borne out of my early desire to travel and discover places, but largely it was really a fascination with flying. I used to dream of levitation ala Peter Pan, after all. Soon enough, however, I realized I might not be cut out for the profession, as I was, and still am, pretty scared of heights. I think it’s called acrophobia. Sometimes, being defensive, I’d say it’s a qualified case. It’s only open-air heights that I’m scared of (like tall staircases where one can see the ground from the steps), not enclosed spaces like airplanes or top floors of buildings, so I can still make a pilot out of myself, but surely not a Peter Pan. In any case, I thought to myself, I need not be a pilot in order to travel and see the world. Though–the sight of and the prospect of being in the company of flight attendants make me dream about it once in a while.

In other news, if all goes well, I shall be taking an entrance exam in another law school in a month or so. To be honest about it, I’m really enjoying being out of law school right now, but I’m still looking forward to the practice of the legal profession–admittedly not that passionately, but it’s there, somewhere. In any case, I have months to think about it seriously before jumping into law studies once again.

A few days ago, some of my orgmates in UP Cinema Arts Society asked me if Tisay could act for one of our orgmate’s thesis short film production. I was hesitant at first, since Tisay was just two years old, and I was doubting if she could deliver lines or any acting of that sort. Plus, she could be a brat. And I sort of have an idea how coaching a child to act can be a headache. Despite that, I said yes, and for that they even gave me the role of his father, too. Anyhow, it was a largely cameo role.

True enough, however, Tisay was such a brat during the shoot. She was okay at first, but since shoots are always vulnerable to delays, and delayed the shoot was, Tisay got pretty bored and tired before we got to shoot the sequence she was in. By the time it was our turn, she was on tantrums.

Indeed, directing or coaching a child to act can prove to be one of the most difficult aspects of directing. She couldn’t quite grasp what acting was and how pretending is different from what is real and apparent. She got pretty confused when I kept telling her that for a while I would pretend to be our dad. Kunwari ako si papa, ganyan. She couldn’t get it. Ha ha. Oh well, dinaan na lang sa impromptu script-revisions to allow her tantrums and crying to be part of the sequence.

Anyhow, I’ve been having bad dreams every night the past week. Apocalypse, death of loved ones, and even myself, tragedies, etcetera. It has become regular, it’s scary. It has come to a point that I don’t want to sleep anymore. Gabi-gabi bangungot na lang palagi. Well, it’s not as if I can avoid sleep altogether. I think I should re-learn to pray before sleeping at night.

So there goes some random blurbs.